The Coolest Aunt Ever

I received one of the saddest calls of my life today. My mom called to tell me my Aunt Bec Bec died in her sleep this morning. 

It's hard to find words for how I feel, for how incredibly sad I am. Aunt Bec Bec was the best aunt I could have ever wanted, the epitome of the fun, cool aunt. She was the first in my family to know about my tattoo when I was 18, and actually kept the secret(which she wasn't know for doing). She was so excited when I told her about Isaac, since she also married a sailor. She was the Navy wife I looked up to, standing by Uncle Chuck through deployments, moves, 3 kids in the first few years of marriage. She understand what it was like to get married and say good-bye. She understood what it meant to shoulder a lot of the parenting on your own. She understood the struggles and always tried to encourage me when it was hard. She was my first visitor when I moved here shortly after Isaac and I married. She loved my boys like they were her own grand kids. When my best friend, Brenna's daughter was born at 25 weeks, she prayed for her, asked about her, and sent her little premie tobogans to wear when she came home. She loved my dogs almost as much as my boys, and sent them gifts right along with the boys gifts for Christmas and other holidays.  

My heart is so sad that the boys will not grow up knowing their Aunt Bec Bec, and any subsequent kids won't get to meet her. My heart is sad that Isaac wont' get a chance to get to know her better, as he was deployed or had to work during many visits. My heart is sad that I won't get to know her better. Every visit was marked with laughter, almost to tears. 

The last time I saw her was almost a year ago, I think. Judah was just a few months old and loved getting to meet his Aunt Bec Bec. He actually went to her and allowed her to hold him, which doesn't happen very often. The visit was short, but so nice to see her and spend a few hours catching up. She was planning on coming here with Uncle Chuck in November. We always looked forward to those visits. 

Aunt Bec Bec, I love you and miss you so much.